The Kidder and His Kidney
Yes, kidney, not kidneys, just one solo, precious kidney. Which belongs to me. :)
For those who know me, know I love to joke, know I love to deflect from reality at times. To be honest, that deflection has kept me alive for 27.5 years! I never lament about what is going on internally or that I have just one leg, because I believe the body will take care of itself.
Yet a trip to Charleston, SC , and a little more wisdom at my back, taught me otherwise! I did the same old stuff for a year, and in that year my body was not reacting as good as I thought. In fact, it was getting a tad worse. It turns out, my kidney is now experiencing some reflux from my bladder, which I am not happy about. I’m not going to blame my hardworking body, I’m going to shoulder it myself.
I guess I’m writing this to tell you, if you feel you are doing the same old stuff, you too can reverse your course! It won’t take any of us a day to reverse, it may not even happen in a year. But the question I ask myself is how can I, as my Doctor Alam in now MUSC put it, ‘get this under control’.
Since I heard that, my brain has been running in circles with some nervousness, some ‘I got this’ and some HOW THE F DO I TRULY CONTROL THIS!
Yes, that’s my brain running at 100 mph! Thank God for the Citadel baseball team playing right after my appointment ; Thank God for having a mother that is patient, loving, and caring and we went on some awesome sightseeing in Charleston. Thank God for having a friendship and connection in SC to meet and hang out with for a while! And I will say, thank God for my urologist, but all that took place afterwards took my mind off the grim news I seem to be facing.
In a week where we’ve seen three deaths due to an LIRR crash that’s caused delay upon delay upon delay, headlines like that disturb me but open my eyes as much as an ultrasound did.
Life IS precious, so I now ask myself and shutter to think if I actually do consider my life precious, because I really do love my life. But I’ll keep asking myself and keep pushing myself to do introspective instead of living in the external !
Will you join me?